Hmf..!!?!

I hav faced quite a number of bad people in life...

And i hav developed a tendency of brooding... a tendency of viewing every person who fails my expectations to be a traitor... a tendency of being suspicious about motives... a tendency of giving the worst swears to people who I think I hate...

Maybe the reason for this is that I don't have anybody to vent my frustration... I don't have anybody who tolerates my anger... I don't have anybody who will listen to all that I have to say and believe in me...

I have blocked communication... Because people consider me a maniac... People say I expect too much... Do I really? I wonder!

itz not today...

itz not today that im facin a problem...
itz not today that my mom duznt offer me food...
itz not today that my sister insults me...
itz not today that im misunderstood...

itz not today that i disappoint my dad...
my dad who struggles to keep me smiling...
itz not today that i let down my partner...
the things inside me just keep piling...

itz not today that my friends betray me...
they aren't there when i need them...
itz not today that i scream within...
is ther anythin left that i didn't condemn...